Friday, July 29, 2011

Another test under my belt

So I took my third test of four today in pathophysiology. I made an 88. My last test for this class will be August 8th-ish. We are going to Florida the weekend before so it will be interesting to see how I fare on my test after a weekend of deep sea fishing and chillaxing at the beach. I am hoping it will serve as a marker--a marker to end summer and immediately begin the new school year the following Monday. It is going to be so hectic. I almost can't wait!! I know I will regret saying that here in a couple of months. I need to enjoy this "stress free" time while I have it. On another note, I made a very positive stride in my life today. I was able to face some adversity that has been going on for over a year and boy do I feel better. I feel as though a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I feel so free from this stress in fact that I have a more positive outlook on nursing school!
So I just had to drop a line today in my constant attempt to maintain this blog. Until next time!

Monday, July 25, 2011

So today I took my daughter to the psychiatrist for a follow up on her ADHD Meds. Obviously with this guy being a psychiatrist and all he surely is observant of other people. Me. He thinks I may have an adult form of ADD. I have suspected this for a while but have never thought it would be taken seriously by a doctor. I do admit to me OCD I am fanatic about having clean countertops, I must have my rooms in the house lit a certain way, when I make beds they must have no wrinkles in them including the sheets, and I also cook to perfection without ever enjoying the things I cook. They just don't taste like they would if someone else made them. I think we established yesterday that I hasve some serious anxiety issues so that cat is out of the bag. I have my first appt. With the psych dr. On august 10th so we will see how he officially diagnoses me. I don't feel like I have anything to report from my past like most people do. I have no extensive history. I am not conniving, evil, or crude. I am truly a "what you see is what you get" type person. I feel like the doctor may try to fish things out of me but it will be a very unsuccessful fishing trip for him if he does! So back to the adult ADD, it makes sense because when I am reading all of my nursing books, I can read an entire chapter and remember nothing! And like yesterday's post, that is not good for any future patient of mine! Until next time....

Sunday, July 24, 2011

I made it back

So here I am trying to prepare for my third pathophysiology test. I feel so over this class. I am not sure if it because it is summer or what. I feel burnt out. Unrested. I am having anxiety about this upcoming school year. First of all, I am taking pharmacology fall semester. You have to make a 90 on all tests, which is great for the patient right?? I mean if you are laid up in a hospital bed, you wanna know that your nurse passed all of her dosage calculations exams! Well, I stress so bad when it comes to tests. I am the type of person that learns by doing. Once I get into a routine, I am unstoppable. I can retain information in my brain and be able to think about it--but be totally unable to express the information in words. I so hope I can overcome this. I can't wait to look back on this blog in 6 months-12 months-18 months from now and totally laugh at myself for all the worry. I need to learn to let go of all my worries. Sometimes I wonder if I am nursing material. At this point it is too late to think about that. There have been many changes in my life that have given me the self confidence to do these things. Without those changes, and one day I will discuss them, I would still be the person who thinks she is not valuable. For those changes I am thankful.

Friday, July 22, 2011

First blog...what to say...

So this blog could very well be a success. It is probable that it will end in failure. I am not very good at keeping up with things. I always say that I don't like certain things because they are a "commitment". I don't like to commit to anything, I tell you! I am however, committed to my husband, my two daughters, and my beautiful cocker spaniel. The dog keeps me on the move just about as much as the kids do.
My first blog could give a little bit of background, and also state why I am actually here. At the ripe old age of 28 I decided that I should go back to school. At the time I was living in Alaska. I decided (along with millions of others) that nursing would be my focus. We have a nursing shortage and nurses are really rolling in the dough (yeah right). Well ever since I was a little girl I wanted to be a nurse. After three years of really hard work, I finally found out that I had been accepted into the nursing program. Out of 225 qualified applicants, they chose little ole me (and 94 other peeps). I know it must be meant to be, the way the time frame worked out and all.
So for now, and because it is 1:00 a.m., I am going to wrap this up. For how long? One will have to wait and see!